Incompletion.

The Sea Walker

Windless breeze, sin plagued sand,
one moon over the dim stars.
He threads down its road.
The endless.

He was told,
rings and bands, hold up.
He was told.

Hated revelations of an everlasting covenant.
He never knew, yet he still walked,
down the sea path,
deeper and further,
every time around.

Stopping at the stone,
yet another rose to the many unseen ones.
Time doesn't waste, time was treasured.
Now, wasted.

He had gone up,the angels embrace him.
He embraced no one.
The search failed, unfulfilling success in the end.

Before she died,
she lied.

AbsenceOfMind.

OK. Quick Update.

Firstly, MERRY F**KING CHRISTMAS TO ALL YOU PEOPLE. WAHAHAHAHHAAH.

That done, I just bought SmackdownVsRaw2009 for my PSP. And i've been not doing much productive stuff lately except when I head out to have fun, of which I've become too lazy to blog about. So to all those critics who say I am not gonna be faithful to everday blogging, YOU HAVE WON. LOL. So I decided, that I want to do more of writing when i feel like it. And NO, my writing does not have to reflect my mood. It's just random. RANDOM. and it's also an excuse not to blog about my daily live as much. WHOOOOOTS. lol. okok. So, i've been out with the following people lately.

1) Gwen. ;p ;p ;p
2) Jane
3) Mum
4) Amanda - cuzzie
5) Amanda Charlene - Godsis

More to come as i have to meet up with,

1) Gwen ;p ;p ;p
2) Amanda Charlene and my Godma.
3) Wei Cheng - WATCHING YES MAN- OH YES.
4) Yun Sheng
5) Amanda - cuzzie - to take my Basic Theory Test for driving.
6) Ruth - AND IF YOU ARE READING THIS NOW RUTH. YOU BETTER MAKE A DAY FREE!

And get my Gundam 00 + O Raiser HCM Pro set when it comes out.

yep. So till then. God bless the World.
n-joi

p.s - The stupid incident on the Singapore Flyer. Was done by me. And my SUPERABILITY TO DAMAGE MOTORS WITH MY TELEKENISIS POWERS. ;p ;p ;p

Melodies.

On This Guitar

I play, the strings, as they come to life.
Speaking, whispering, chanting.
The notes echoes deep sentiments.
Words form up, as they slip, from my lips.
Vibrations of waves, crying.
Fills the stagnant air.
Ripples of emotions.
Stages of concentration.

Then they break.
Into nonsensical thoughts.
Verses that refuse to find the chorus.
Lines reduced to words.
Stopping. Waiting. For the next train.
A heartache of sorts.
Or another joyous day.

It comes back, quickly, slowly, some way.
And links together nicely.
I find it all too easily.
Too easy, it scares me.
Too easy, it haunts me.

As a stirring awakens an inner demon.
A demon from the past.
Puts the words in place.
Melodies on this guitar.
Play in unwanted unison.

Melodies that plagued.
Melodies unwanted.

ThirteenBlankPages.

Sketches

Thirteen blank pages.
Twelve white, one green.
Flipping through distortion and beauty.
Art and memories not so distant.

An unfinished poem.
Incomplete sketches of pain and confessions.
Closed eyes for inspiration.
But visions of black is the only thing envisioned.
On white paper.

Balcony windows with no safety.
Ghosts at every corner of the house.
Nostalgia and Déjà vu.
Sketches, haunted.

Blend of colours, blending to naught.
Ruined ruins.
As the paper grows old.
Its ends coil in, the paint seeps through.
Tattered and torn, but in one piece.

An artwork so magnificent.
In its depreciation.
Perfect.

Solitare.

My Confusion.

Double the love, half the joy.
Two parts to my heart.
One might stay, one might go.
Fanciful lights that decorate.
Glistening but I swore, there was something wrong.
The paper crane flows down a river.
Slowly, getting wet and disappearing.

Now I’m at the crossroads,
with no traffic on both sides.
Left or right, right or wrong,
just this time I don’t know.

One lullaby, two pairs of ears.
Three hearts crash and burn.
Two alive, but one will be dead.
Imagination versus reality.
Can’t decide now, but there is something wrong.
Water poured over a bonfire,
Doused, but it’s gone, over and out.

Now I’m at the crossroads,
with no traffic on both sides.
Left or right, right or wrong,
just this time I don’t know.

I can cry, like a helpless wimp,
useless, but I can’t help it so
I just lie in wonder.

Day2.

ARGH. Sudden boredom and nothing much to do over these few days. Been going out here and there with nothing much to do.

However this changed today with a visit to La Tendo at tha Kallang Leisure Park. BECAUSE I'VE BOUGHT MYSELF TWO GOODIES!!!!!!

YES, the much sought after by me GN Flag from Gundam 00, of which only one producer would release as a model, AND I HAVE IT!!!!! I also got Joseph's berseker Blassreiter Form from the anime Blassreiter!!!! That one is SOOOO sexy due to its black and red colour scheme. as compared to his normal form of dark blue and purple. OOOOOH yea. ;p ;p ;p. A little costly especially the latter but I was DAMN HAPPY CAN?!?!?!!?! ;p ;p ;p.

"Joseph" - The Sword is DAMN SEXY TOO!!!

"GN Flag" - the heavily underated sexy Mobile Suit.

HAHA. then I went to play pool with Yun Sheng, and I kinda sucked today. HAHA. but I guess what was cool was that we ate at ASTON'S baby!!!!! The steak. Is. Heavenly. ;p ;p ;p. then an hour of Counter Strike for fun. HAHA.

Well. Nothing else much to update about. HAHA.
Till the next update,
n-joi

IsThereAnythingBetweenUs.

What If

Verse 1

It’s late at night about a quarter to 12,

Sitting by the phone waiting for a call.

A word, a response from you,

And once again,

Its quiet in here with no sound of you.

Should I ever have told you,

That I fell in love with you?

Should I have just waited?

I really wonder.

Chorus

What if you loved someone who,

Doesn’t know if she loves you.

Cause everything just feels so right,

Yet so wrong.

What am I to do?

Verse 2

What could be right in my wrongs?

Did you sit down to find my mistakes?

What are you contemplating with?

Don’t tell me it’s all gone in flames.

Would I suffer if you were gone,

Cause I still can’t describe this pain.

I really wonder.

Chorus

Bridge

Even if the stars were to fall from the sky,

Would I be able to hold you and not say goodbye?

And If I were the only guy who stands left,

Would you come to me?

And I wonder.

Last Chorus

What if you loved someone who,

Doesn’t know if she loves you.

Cause everything just feels so right,

Yet so wrong,

What am I to do?

Can’t you see how you’re making me feel?

I’m just lost, lost within you.

SadnessInHappiness.Repeats.

What am I to search for,

as you rip me apart on more time.

I thought we had an answer,

then suddenly, it's goodbye.

BoatInABottle.

Whoots! Batam Dedicated Post!!!!!

And so, the trip was planned and we met at Habourfront at around 7.30am. And what a way to start of the trip with STARBUCKS FOR BREAKFAST. Dark Cherry Mocha IS HEAVENLY! and does not taste like cough mixture (yes Angelica, I still insist that it does not.)

Took a ferry there and we sat in the open air. Where I tried to get into a comfy position to sleep and ended up nudging some fat lady's seat, and she seemed damn irritated. Then my uncle, whom I was too room with joked with me saying that the lady might scream molest. And I answered.

" I'll just tell the lady that I don't have bad taste and I think even the cops would agree."

My uncle went into a fit of laughter. ;p ;p ;p.

The first sight upon alighting the ferry.

The first sight upon entering the hotel.

The first sight upon entering the bedroom.

The first sight of the terrorizing cousin on a bed. LOL.

When we reached, it was about NOON. which only meant one thing. LUNCH. Where we are DIM SUM. ;p ;p ;p ;p ;p ;p.

Fantastically huge Prawn Mayo. ;p ;p ;p.


"Erm. I don't eat prawn" - Younger Cousin.

The Kid's artistic food piece. LOL.

A quick pic of my cousins and me plus my Grandma.

And I had to play bodyguard to the small kids swimming. lol.

After that, we rested before we had dinner. BUT NOT BEFORE THIS.

MY UNCLE TRYING TO ACT FREAKY. EPIC LOL.

I had this wonderfully decorated Cabonara. ;p ;p.

After that we went to the arcade where I played pool with my uncles and watch the kids spend 10 bucks on credits for this Ski Game. LOL.

AND THEN KARAOKE!!!

With LIME VODKA!

Day Two - The Shopping

My incredible find. PEANUT BUTTER IN A PACKET!!!!

Camwhoring with my aunt who wanted this picture. I look so retarded. -_-. lol.

Shopping was great due to the unbelievable prices of the shirts. AND THEY WERE SLOGAN SHIRTS!!!!! ;p ;p ;p. I bought 6 slogan shirts at the average price of 5 bucks per piece. ;P:P:P.

I wanted to buy this shirt if not for the "wether" part.

Lunch at a place that has vanished from Singapore....HOW COOL IS THAT!??!?!

Batam's version of KFC, Best Fried Chicken. HILARIOUS.

Tea at a J.CO outlet. Buy a drink, get a free plain donut. LOL.

Went back to the hotel to get touched by a girl. heh. MASSAGE LA.

The tea tree spa.

And the bed that she was to work out my kinks. LOL.

Had BBQ SEAFOOD FOR DINNER. But I forgot to take pictures of anything except the desert. ;p

Day Three - Departure. - Nothing much on this day lor. LOL.
So basically that was the trip la. LOL. AND HERE IS A PIC OF THE SHIRTS I BOUGHT!!!!

HAHA. BTW, I'm SOOO sorry for the super late update. I know this is damn late especially since I came back on Sunday. On Monday was also the performance with TKSS PLUS XIOA HUI'S BIRTHDAY SURPRISE. Been busy so FINALLY now, i've decided to update. Was really reluctant about the Batam post cause there were SOO many pictures. Will update again soon. ;p

Till then,
n-joi

Words.

You just came back today. Your quick response. Without listening properly. Unwelcomed and Hurting. What were you thinking. Commentless and Disappointed.

Just came off the phone with Wei Cheng who has been my best bud for 12 yrs now. And we started finding random things to rhyme with the word hell. And it was damn lame but funny.

Trade off between me and Wei Cheng.
-"This way to heaven, this way to hell."
-"This way to KFC, this way to taco bell."
-"This way to scream, this way to yell."
-"This way to Longkang, this way to well."
-"This way to buy, this way to sell."
-"This way to Compaq, this way to Dell."
-"This way to wax, this way to gel."
-"This way to hardcore match, this way to Hell in A Cell."
-"This way to ask, this way to tell."
THEN THE ULTIMATE K.O.
Wei Cheng - "This way to fish, this way to eel." LOL. POWER LA CHENG!!!

n-joi

TheOneLastTime.

"If only you can understand that I still need another OneLastTime."

Leaving for Batam tomorrow. Till I come back,
n-joi

Just for fun I thought i'll put an emo one liner. Just to make my blog look a little more emo-er.
And while i'm at that, I should also make the font small like those bloggers who do so. LOL.
So I hope you really SQUINTED your eyes.
And I really like the picture by the way.

AnApplicableMemoir.

I was listening to a song called "My Curse" yesterday. And I finally found its real meaning. Not only within me, but what I found on the internet. And I have to say. It's one of the saddest yet beautiful songs i've come to realise to date. The following is screencaps from the song. With my own words.

"I stand alone,

Watching you in the wilderness.

Though your hands caress, ever so gently,The memories chooses to stay in a written form.



An emptiness within me as the memories scatter,

An emptiness within these endless matters,
An empty void, with nothing better.



And as I frantically flip through the memories collected,I see your face, broken and shattered.



But, alas, a pleasant one to see,A perfect picture of you. Of you and me."

"My Curse pertains to the theme of dwelling on a passed loved one. The woman in the white dress in the field represents the man in black's life with her when he felt happy and free. The dark study is an embodiment of his depression after her death (To see you again/Dying, inside, these walls/ Dying,inside, these walls), and the books the man flips through throughout the video represent his memories of her. After her death, he dwells on her passing (I strain my eyes, hoping to see you again) and tries to find a way to be with her again (There is love burning to find you / Will you wait for me? / Will you be there?). Ultimately, his memories consume him; however, as his memories finally kill him, he is finally able to reunite with his love (And I see your face). The man's "curse" is that he is trapped in a life where he is unable to be with the woman he loves (This is my curse, the longing / This is my curse, time / This is my curse, the yearning)." - Wikipedia.

Here are the full lyrics of the song.

My Curse - Killswitch Engage

I watched you walk away
Helpless, with nothing to say
I strain my eyes
Hoping to see you again

This is my curse (the longing)
This is my curse (time)
This is my curse (the yearning)
This is my curse

There is love burning to find you
Will you wait for me?
Will you be there?

Your silence haunts me
But still I hunger for you

This is my curse (the wanting)
This is my curse (time)
This is my curse (the needing)
This is my curse

There is love burning to find you
Will you wait for me?

Still I want
And still I ache
But still I wait
To see you again

Dying, inside, these walls.

And I see your face in these tears? In these tears
And I see your face...

There is love.


"And I will wait, and search. Till I find you."

Till the next update,
n-joi